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Name: Ashley
Location: Texas, United States
Birthday: 5/8/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: origin of this user name: you know the guy who plays "the Sherminator" in all the American Pie movies? Well he also plays a klepto in Cant Hardly Wait, who someone I used to know called "stealystealerson",and I guess that was a random thought I had when creating this sight, hehe...
Expertise: being an badass at life.... or not at all.. I love politics.... I am a hard core young Republican, and I despise "certain organizations" that encourage youth to vote... for the democrats that they support. SOOO IRRESPONSIBLE.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Government
Message: message me
AIM:  Lilchika06
Member Since:
9/30/2003
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| Four jobs I've had in my life:
1. Lone Star Cafe
2. Italianos
3. Wet Seal
4. studying... lol
Four movies I could watch over & over:
1. Can't Hardly Wait
2. Van Wilder
3. Ella Enchanted
4. Shindler's List... LMAO kidding
Four places I've lived:
1. Humble, Texas
2. San Marcos, Texas
3. Blanco hall
4. Lantana hall.. lol what can i say i dont move often
Four TV shows I love to watch:
1. Friends
2. Family Guy
3. Daisy Does America
4. E! red carpet fashion police (during awards season only lol)
Four places I've been on vacation (hahaha):
1. Ft. Walton Beach, FL
2. Myrtle Beach, SC
3. Castaway, in Minnesota
4. New York City
Four websites I visit daily:
1. Texas State email/ blackboard
2. Facebook
3. MySpace
4. msn.com
Four of my favorite foods:
1. Wing Stop
2. anything Mexican
3. pasta
4. #1's with extra cheese from wendys lol
Four places I'd rather be:
1. at the beach
2. Australia
3. home
4. ok, beach again, you got me
Four books I'll read over and over again:
1. The Giver (I've been in love with it since 3rd grade, I wanna marry it lol)
2. Angels and Demons
3. anything history related
4. again...
Eight "desert island discs":
1. Jimmy Eat World- Bleed American
2. Green Day- International Super Hits
3. Jack Johnson- In Between Dreams
4. Clay Walker- Greatest Hits
5. Bon Jovi- Crossroads
6. Eve 6- Horrorscope
7. my fav 80's mixed cd
8. Spice Girls LMAO
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| - Dreamin with my eyes open Wow... alot has happened since I last wrote. I am alot more... grounded now, I should say, for lack of a better word. Things are starting to stabilize in my life and I am soo sooo sooo happy for that. I feel like the bulk of the bull shit has erradicated itself from my life and now I can focus on my true love- school, studying and being completely myself. Lmao. I'm thinking about going to grad school at SMU if I can. I love the SMU area of Dallas... either there or stay here.... because let's face it, San Marcos is home to me. I just feel like everything is falling into place and for the first time in a long time I am 100% entirely completely single and independant of everyone. It feels good... now if only I can keep this up for a year or two.....
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| - Fortunate Fool OOOh my gosh I looove this song sooo much.
"She's the one that stumbles when she talks about it so maybe we shouldn't talk about, Such a fortunate fool". Nuff Said. Oh man.
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| So I've been doing an awful lot of thinking lately, and have come to a rather bizzare conclusion. I am going to change. For myself. I took a look at the past several years of my life and realized that it was all a huge game to me. A game in that in embarking on a slew of quasi-relationships and real relationships I was playing full time, without ever even knowing I was playing it half the time. The Game. Some people live for it. I have and didnt even realize it. The game is the chase to some people. But to me, the Game is the inability to truly emerse yourself within someone's presence, to be cynical, to be apathetic, to be overly careful and to never really be yourself. It seems for as long as I can remember I've had this horrible fear of getting hurt, before I ever even knew what it was to hurt. I've blow guys off, I've hung out with some, never really caring, I've pretended to be myself. What I have realized over the past few days is that when it comes down to it, the real me is a dorky little girl who likes to dance around my apt with Kat and meet new people. I think I got tired of playing the game a few months ago, but the tricky thing about the game, is you cant just stop playing it with someone in the middle of it, you have to stop the relationship and start all over, or just cut your losses, because if you dont disaster sets in. I dunno, I just feel like all this rambling is clearing up my head somehow. I was talkin to kat tonight, and I said something to the effect of how I needed to just be alone for a while, completely alone, because I havnt truly been alone in years and I seem to have lost my perspective, if I ever actually had a perspective worth having, that is. I continued to explain how in doing this, even just for the past week, I had come into a sense of self I hadnt felt in a long time. It occurred to me that in order to make my perspective correct, I would have to completely start over. People get hurt, but I have been hurting myself in hiding my true self from people. No guy I have ever hung out with has seen my true 100% personality, and that was a kind of rude awakening to me. I dunno... thats all I care to discuss just yet... more soon. | | |
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